Scared.

For the past couple of weeks I've been adrift in my nagging thoughts. Adulthood pounding into my skull trying to drive me absolutely insane asking for answers to questions I can't even fathom (what do I want to do with myself? who do I want to be? what is going to make me happy for the rest of my life?) I've questioned all of my decisions from the time I even began dreaming of a career. How could I have done everything right and be stuck here in nowhere land? I hate my job. I feel like a failure. How did I get to this point of 24 and not know what I want to do with the rest of my life? I can say that I'm terrified. Terrified of really failing and hating where I'll end up.

But I'm not scared of one thing. Not scared of being with you. Not scared of taking a chance when I know that you are in the equation. Yes it's scary to move away. Yes it's scary to live somewhere new and not know what's going to happen. But none of that matters because I'm going to be with you and all that scariness is worth it. You're the love of my life. I know that whatever I choose you'll be there to support me. I know that I won't fail because you won't let me give up. Just knowing you're in my life makes me believe in myself. I love you.

All I Need

If only i could wrap my arms around your lovelyness. if i could embrace the sweet tranquility of your warm dreaming. keep it tucked close inside for safe keeping while im gone from you and your perfect. replete with
lovelyness, kindness, strength and virtue
then i would