When Your Not Round (An Odd Love Song)

There are homeless sleeping in the trenches
watching discount VHS'
I see dogs that walk their masters
alarms that don't siren disasters
Parents have their kids in cages
I know that this must sound outrageous
But bears are shitting in the sewers
Worms ate all my fishing lures
I know how crazy this all sounds
Thats what it's like when your not round
My TV's only playing static
hospitals creating addicts
My name has changed, I tell you that?
Buddhists planning sneak attacks
Ants are thinking for themselves
There are hundreds in the wishing well
I know how crazy this all sounds
Thats what it's like when your not round
Clouds are heavy filled with bricks
The rich folks moved out to the sticks
Papers made of human skin
Oh no, here we go again
I know how crazy this all sounds
Thinking of going underground
I wish that I was homeward bound
Cuz thats what Its like when your not round

Things I Want To Do With My Boyfriend Right Now

1) Jump on him. Like run to him and leap into his arms and wrap my legs around his torso. He'd have to hold me up but he'd love it at the same time.

2) Kiss him. All over. All over his face and his lips. (I love his lips and his neck)

3) Sit/lay down and cuddle. I could do that all day. I want to breathe in his smell and hug the crap out of him. I want my head on his chest and his heart beating in my ears.

4) Sexy time. I want it. I want him. Anywhere. Everywhere.

5) Sleep next to him. I feel like I sleep better with him there. It's probably not true because we go to bed late and I snore but I love sleeping next to him. I'm all wrapped up in Chris and it's wonderful.

6) Make dinner/breakfast with him. I love playing house with him. I want to grocery shop, chop, sauté and eat with my baby. It's so romantic. Even brewing coffee is fun.

7) Go to a club with and dance with him. I just want to go crazy on my baby while we both look really hot and then go make sweet sweet love.

8) See movies. I want to lay my head on his shoulder and intertwine our fingers and share popcorn and candy.

9) Go on a fancy date. We get dressed up all fancy and eat fancy food and drink fancy wine and be all fancy.

10) Go to a hotel. You know why.

Random thoughts on a random shirt

I found his green shirt today while I was doing laundry.

For those glorious three weeks we spent almost every day together. We knew that every minute apart was wasted and that if we weren't in the same room we'd miss each other. The clothes collected on my bedroom floor as we laughed and basked in each other's love and the green shirt disappeared. I picked it up and breathed it in. I know I should wash it and send it to him but part of me just wants to keep it dirty. Keep it Chris-ified. I just want it to wrap around me and make him present. Make it like he's right here next to me curled up sleeping. I would edge closer to him and wrap my arms around him. Bury my face in his back or his chest. He's only been gone for four days but I want him back. Nothing really feels right when he's gone. When I lay down to sleep and know he's not following me to bed my heart hurts.

I'm still standing and holding the shirt. I'm torn between keeping it to love it and wanting him to have it. I put it in my laundry bag knowing that in the end he should have it. Besides. I still have the sweater I stole...